Maybe it's just the Holiday Spirit, but.....

I'm now just realizing how happy I really am. I don't think this is one of those "Temporary holiday uplifts", either..

This is so amazing!


I dunno; I'm just really happy. I got a character in the musical (He even has a name and everything! Haha.) and I got a big part in Drama Fest, which I am extremely proud of myself for. I'm still not in a relationship, but that's okay. I'm just enjoying my life right now. It's really great. December has been a pretty good month for me, and I'm just in love with the world right now. Even with all the "Hills and Valleys", I'm still really content. I'm just realizing that every day is a new adventure, and although the days not be COMPLETELY different each day, nothing in life is completely constant. I love that. The world is a great place for me right now; I might not have everything I've ever wanted, but I love the excitement every new day brings. I find myself waking up in the morning asking, "What am I going to do today?". Even if what I'm doing isn't particulary fabulous, it's still something new, something I haven't done yesterday. I finally feel like I'm making progress in my goals. I'm getting to know some I really like better, I'm doing 2 theater projects, I'm holding a (Semi) steady job, and I have people in my life that I love. I don't think this is just "The Holiday Spirit", I think somewhere along the line, I've had an epiphany of some sort. Even though there are still some aspects I want to change in my life, whatever is meant to happen for me, will happen.



The world is up for the taking;

....and Bitches, I'm getting my piece.

Peace and Love blogger babe,
-Chris.

Dear you

Hi, i have a couple new dear you's to people that I need to address...


Dear you,

I have so much respect and admiration for you, but I constantly feel as if you dislike me for some reason. I've done everything I can, but I still feel as though you don't approve of me at all. I don't get it. You inspire me so much, but my hunch that you just "plain-old don't like me" kind of hurts.

:[

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DEAR YOU,

I don't see why you INSIST on acting like you know EVERYTHING on the fucking planet. Honestly, you're not the be-all-end-all you think you are. You have weaknesses just like EVERYONE else. You're "I can say what I want because I'm just so fantastical" attitude pisses me off. LIKE LEGIT.

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Dear you,

I get so nervous every time I talk to you. I can't handle how hard I'm crushing on you. It's kind of pathetic. I don't what about you makes me so attracted to you, but something just gravitates me towards you; I just love being around you. Although I may spin it like I don't want to be around you...I do. <3

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That's all for now.
I love how each one has a different mood.
=)

Things that make me giggle.

I was having a pretty crappy day today....so I figured I would play the GLAD GAME. It's fun....and EASY! You just think of things that make you glad, or laugh, or smile. Give it a shot!

Here are mine.

1) When cellphones ring in quiet rooms....at inappropriate times.

2)When the above happens, and the person has a TRADEMARK Ringtone (Ie. It's Raining men, Any death metal song, songs with suggestible lyrics).

3) People with terrible gay-dar.

4) Comfy, but fabulous looking clothes.

5) Musicals!

6) Terrible "A guy walks into a bar" jokes.

7)Dancing awkwardly.

8) the fact that Barack Obama is our president elect. (ITS AWESOME)

9)Catholic Priest jokes.

10) speaking other languages poorly

11) Delicious summer fruits in the winter.

12)Singing!

13) Having random dance parties for no reason.

14) Having a plan, and then completely ditching it.

15) This one guy I kinda sorta really like. <3
16) Parody Lyrics

17)Warm Socks.

18)When people change for the better

19)Sarah Nesbitt, and rolling with her gangstuh-ness.

20) Having lists that end in even intervals of 10.


=D

YOU DO IT!
Leave a comment with Your own glad game!

It's the First blog of Decemberrrrrrrr <3

Hey there sexy blogger bitches,


I'm having a rather conflicted day. Today was the last day of BHS's Fall Play "The Stinky Cheese Man and Other Fairly Stupid Tales". I had a really great time doing it, and I met some amazing people. I'm just really sad now that it's over. We were like a big dysfunctional family, and I loved it. Everyone was really supportive of each other, and I just loved everyone in the cast and crew. The are excellent people.

=D


I'll miss all of them SO much.
I hope they all do the musical! =)

I don't know why i'm blogging.

I really have no desire to bitch and moan about my lack of boyfriend anymore. So I won't.

I'm gonna put this in the back of my mind for now.
I just wish this one guy knew how I feel about him.
Oh well.
finding someone doesn't seem as important now as it did before.
I dunno what happened, but I decided I don't care as much anymore.

This is so amazing.

I go on Youtbe a lot, and I see some pretty amazing things.
This is a series of Ads created by GLSEN to urge people to not say "That's so Gay".





This is awesome.
=)

The inner ramblings of a love struck teen.

Honestly, I am so fucking depressed.

I hate being depressed; I love to be wild and fun.
But this whole "love struck blues" thing is getting me down.

MAJORLY.


Honestly. I spend way too much time worrying about finding someone.
I really wonder if I have some kind of affection complex.
But for reals, Bloggers; I was hugged enough as a child.
So maybe I'm NOT crazy.
Heh.

I've gotten to the point where when I see happy couples, I can't barely handle it anymore.
Well, not all happy couples. I can stand to be around my friends and their significant others, but honestly, when I see two people I don't know laughing and holding hands, frankly, it pisses me off.

Every single guy i've ever been attracted to is either:

A)Straight
B)Oblivious
C) Obviously not interested.
D) So deep in the closet that they're finding Christmas presents.


Lucky me!
Nahhhhtttt.

I really wonder if I'll ever find someone special.
It doesn't seem to be going that way.


I'm done.
I'm afraid that if I continue, I'll seem like more of a desperate loser than you previously thought.
Hahaha.
...well, not really.


Thanks for reading my foxy blog babes,
Chris.

I FAIL. IFAILIFAILFAILFAILFAILFAILFAILFAILFAILFAIL,

I remember telling you all that I'm done looking for a relationship?

GUESS WHAT?

I failed.
I tried to get this one person to notice me today.
I don't even know if it worked.
But I feel like terrible for breaking my promise to myself.

Oh well, I can always keep trying.

Tah Tah my blogger dahlings!
-Chris.

Barack Obama is my Epic Hero.

Bahahahaa.

WIN.

WINWINWINWINWINWINWINWIN.
FOR OBAMA.

I love this video with a passion.
Even if Obama had no hand in creating it, he's still my hero for being the star.

I've Decided.

Howd'ya 'do, blog partner?,


I'm in such a good mood right now!

I have just made an AMAZING realization. I've spent ALL this time obsessing about how and when I could meet a boy, and I never really considered WHY I needed one so badly.

I guess the realization I've made is, that I don't really NEED a boyfriend.
It'd be great if I met someone, but I'm not going to sit around and wait for someone to make me happy. I felt so pathetic, just sitting around and waiting for someone to find me; I'm just gonna let anything that happens happen. I'm not going to search for something, especially if it's not there.


=)

On that note; If there are any beautiful men out there, look me up dahlings! I'm not picky. =)

Peace, Love, and Polka Dots,
-Chris!

Pandora's Box.

Hey blogger bitchez,



I feel really stupid right now. Why?


Let me tell ya, babies.


So there is this guy; and I really really like him. (Well, there are a few guys I really really like, but that's not the point.) Anyway, I really really like(d) him, and I thought I was FINALLY getting him to warm up to me...but I, as always, was VASTLY, VASTLY WRONG. Even though he hasnt declared to me yet, I know he's gay. I wasn't sure whether or not he was seeing someone, but I thought for a while, he was. But after I knew this boy was SINGLE, I was really happy; I thought I had a chance. After having this stupid idea in my head for the LONGEST TIME, I recently checked on whether of not he was still single:

Relationship Status: Single

Looking For: Friendship.

Needless to say, I was a little crushed. But for some reason, I still felt sort of good. It was like that Greek myth; Pandora unleashes all the negatives in the word, but at the bottom of her box, there was still one thing; Hope.

I still have Hope.
I'll always have Hope.
I mean, I thought this guy was special, but there are still tons out there. I know not all of them will be in to me too, but they're still out there somewhere. Maybe this just wasn't meant to be, but there has to be someone who is. That being so comforting, who has the time to mope over one person?

Secret Message

Hey Blogger bitches!
This blog isn't one of my usual blogs; I'm treating this post more like an internet diary.
I just had some thoughts I wanted to get out. I really like this idea my friend Gabe had. for Messengers of Bohemia, he suggested an Idea called the "Dear You" program. Basically, you write an anonymous message to someone else, about anything you want, (Well, within reason....no threats! I do NOT want to be stuck in a room for 4 hours again!) and you put it into a community box with everyone else's messages. The anonymous messages get posted at a later date, so you can still get your feelings out, and it will be confidential!

Anyways.
I decided a minute ago that I wanted to write one to a certain someone i think is VERY special.
I'm so cheesy.



Dear you,

I have had a crush on you for a while now. Everytime I see you, I smile.
You seem so great; You're intelligent, kind, and amazingly deep.
Under your first level, I can see how amazingly deep and thoughtful you are.
I'm almost sure it would never happen between us, but I would be so lucky if it did.
I wish I had the courage to just walk up and talk to you;
But I don't. =\

-Chris.



I'm so cheesy.
Hahaha.

Bullets and Broomstick Baseball.

Hey my blogger babies!,

Today was a very..."unusual" day at good ole' BHS. I was sitting in Vocal Ensemble, signing in the choir like a good little chorus boy, hen suddenly we hear an announcement:

"All teachers and students are to go into LOCK-DOWN MODE IMMEDIATELY".


So we did.
We locked the doors, and we waited for ANYONE to give us some info about what the FUCK was going on:

20 minutes go by.
Nothin'.

So, our dear Ms.Pilanen, being the dedicated educator that she is, decides to go on with class. So we sing sing sing, and sing some more:

Oh look, it's "lunchtime"
Still no word.

AND THEN.......
Text messages start flying into people's phones; concerned parents wanting to know if their kid is alright, friends debating rumors on who did what, friends from other schools wanting to know "the scoop"

...Still no word.

So then, with the amazing people in my Vocal Ensemble class, we decide to ditch the whole singing thing.


So we just screwed around for the remaining 3 hours.
It was actually pretty fun.
Mama P. got into fooling around with us (She said we could call he Mama P....I think. Look, she was telling a story about it, and I just got the impression it was cool to call her Mama P....so I will i guess.) , and we all seemed to be having a good time. We played some good old fashioned stick (well, it was technically a broom...) Ball, did a little musical improv., and just generally had a good time.

The really nice part though, was when she said she would protect us from any harm.
She said it as part of a joke, but we all knew she was serious.
That's why Mama Pilanen=Amazingness.
She's so nice. She's like, one of my favorite teachers ever.

Especially in the beginning, when she told us to all bunch up, I felt as though we were, well, sort of a family. It was really, really nice.

All in all, I think this whole ordeal was really beneficial.
I it was really nice to see that sense of community.
Even though it sucked to be trapped in one room for 4 hours, I couldn't ask for better people to be trapped with.


What is Beverly and the surrounding community saying about Lockdown O8?

"Beverly has had poor discipline in the public schools for years. That's why we moved and put our kids in the Hamilton-Wenham Regional High School. The real estate taxes are almost double Beverly's and worth every penny for a quality, safe educational environment."


Okay, whoever this Anna woman is, she needs to not bash Beverly. YOU pulled YOUR kids out of Beverly Schools, and you're obviously overjoyed to not be part of the system anymore. So leave Beverly Schools to ITS OWN business, and try to combat the Marijuana issues that YOU are having in YOUR OWN TOWN.

Thanks Anna!

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Personally, I think this was all a plot by Gloucester to get revenge after we tooled on their prostitots.

JUST KIDDING.
(okay, by now you're either glaring at the screen in contempt, or you're laughing hysterically...lets hope for the latter)

I'm pretty pathetic when it comes to love.

It's probably obvious, but I am just the most hopeless romantic you will ever meet in your life. I think a lot about love, and I really want to meet somebody special, and I'll hopefully meet someone amazing really soon...or who knows, maybe I'll find something with someone I already know.

Anyway..

I talk a lot about things like this with my good friend Sarah (Mittens). She INSISTS that I have a type; I really don't think I have a certain type that I fall for. However there are certain things that I find really attractive:

1. Guys with nice smiles
2. Good with children/friendly.
3. Tender, not overly aggressive.
4. Deep, possibly artistic.
5. Tall (not really important, but I love it when guys are the same height or taller than me)
6.Stubble! Stubble is SO FUCKING HOT.

Does that really constitute a type?
Sarah says I have a thing for "Slightly preppies", but I dunno.


;-)

Peace and Love, and TTFN dahlings!
Chris

I've been thinking a lot lately.

So today, everyone in BHS was expected to go to this "Rachel's Challenge" (Seminar?.. I don't think that would be the best word), but anyway; it was this absolutely touching Presentation about the first girl to die in Columbine. I was really touched, and amazed by her views on human ethics, and I just remeber thinking, "If everyone did these things, the world would be a better place."


I considered myslef to be good person. I think that I'm generally nice and friendly with everyone; but I know I'm not perfect. I know I take a long time to forgive people, and I know I get upset with people too easily sometimes. I want to work on that.

Other than forgiveness, I think I try really hard to show love, help others, lead, and show mercy. I think mercy is one of the most beautiful things a person can have. I mean, mercy is having complete mental/emotional dominance over someone, and being a big enough person to not use that advantage. If you're ever in the position where someone is at your mercy, you have an edge over them; but the beauty lies deeper. Being able to give up that edge makes you strong and beautiful as a human being.

Another thing the people talked about was the importance of setting goals. I decided I wanted to write down some goals on my blog, just so I won't lose sight of them:

( )1. Save someone's life.
( )2. Have someone remember me from somewhere, even though I haven't seen them in years.
( )3. Fall in love with someone I'm crazy about.
(X) 4. Give to Charity.
( ) 5. Make someone cry tears of joy.
( ) 6. Live on in word or memory after my death.
( ) 7. Be married to ONE person for life.
( ) 8. Help/Save a child in need.
( ) 9. Work in Music/theatre, or education.
( ) 10. Teach people against hate.
( ) 11. Adopt a child in need.


=]

I'm done for now.
Tah-Tah my Blog babes,
Chris <3

This is so adorable <3

This video is so cute. I wished things like this happened in real life. <3

Ode to Sarah Nesbitt

Hey-hey, my blogging babies!

I'm sitting in Ms.Regans room right now,and I probably should be reviewing for my VERY FIRST AP WORLD TEST! YAY! Nahhhhhhht. But anyway, Ms. Regan is awesome, and I feel the need to honor her in my blog. She's pretty freakin' gangstuh, if I do say so myself.

=D


But anyway.
I have no idea what else to blog about.
There is discussion going around the room about dissection, and cool stuff like that.

Anyway.
Sarah suggested that I blog about her.
So I shall.
Sarah Nesbitt is pretty awesome.
She's a total gangster and and is highly respected in the grocery store community.


I digress, yet again.
I honestly think I have issues holding attention to one thing for long.
Except Sarah Nesbitt; she's freaking awesome.
Ms. Regan too.


=D


Ta-ta for now dahlings,

Chris!


Oh, just by the way, I only have ONE Follower;Sarah Nesbitt.
Like a said, Totally freakin' awesome.
That girl like=Love.
She's like a lady Jesus.
Only more awesome.

Annoying things..PART TWO.

Number 15.
Having really awesome, far out, amazing, like genius ideas..........


..and forgetting what they were when you feel its most important to say them.
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Number 14.
The obviousness on some of the things taught in a driver's manual.


"For our next lesson, we'll learn the significance of a STOP sign. What does one do at a STOP sign?"


I don't know...I generally just wait for pedestrians and run them down when they attempt to cross the street. .....Oh wait, no. I think one STOPS at a STOP sign, though I may be mistaken.

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Number 13.
People who talk unnessicerily softly or calmly.
Seriously, quit it.
it creeps me out. X(
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Number 12.
Having really good Ideas that fail when put into practice.
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Number 11.

When people question if I am legitimately on my highschool's Dance Team.
Why yes, I am.
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Number 10.
Sequels*

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Number 9.

People who like MIA because of Pineapple Express.
That movie looks like crap, and MIA could have done a LOT better.

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Eight!?

The fact that i neve see Jenny Usovicz any more, AND she doesn't update her blog!
(Honestly Jenny, Face-stalking can only tell me so much.) ....(I don't really Face-Stalk people...well one except that one time.)

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Number 9-2=?

The fact that I can no longer get creative with my "annoyance" count down.

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Number 6.
Theater bitches.
I mean, there are a lit of legitimately nice theater people, but a large percentage of them are diva, "i'm so much better than you despte the fact I suck" Hoes. I don't care if you can hit a G without going into Falsetto. I don't care if you have a 3 octave range. (because I have a 3 and a half, and I can hit a Bb.......BITCH.)




Ps. If you can find the ironic statement in this blog, and tell me what it is... I'll like, love you forever.

Love <3

I honestly don't know why I'm posting this.
ps. I'm not in a relationship. I also haven't been in one in a while actually.
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Everyone wants to find a special someone to share their life with, whether that be in short term, or forever. I guess I'm just one of those people that wants to be in a relationship. I spend so much time thinking about what the perfect relationship is, and I really want to meet someone that I can come to love.
I have had a lot of strange experiences when it has come to love. I've been in relationships that mostly, could not have gone worse, and I feel as though those instances were all my fault. I've also been kissed by someone I barely knew at the time, and I've never been in a relationship that hasn't ended badly.

I'm just batting 1000, aren't I?
Haha.

But I have met a few people that I have been attracted to, and I wish I were better about articulating how I feel. Ha.
Sometimes, I also feel like one person in particular might feel the same way i do about them;I don't know whether or not I'm wrong. Maybe they just have the same problem I do, and can't articulate what they want to say?

To that person:

All I have to say is, tell me how you feel.
I won't make you regret it.
I don't want someone carrying around a secret because of me.
If you have feelings for me, I would rather know, than you hiding it.

That might sound a little conceited...but I honestly doubt there is someone reading this who is going to confess anything to me. However, if there IS someone who feels this way, I want them to be honest. Honesty is something I love more than anything. if you have the bravery to tell me how you feel, I have an amazing level of respect for you.

Rude People bother me.

Hey Guys.
I didnt intend for this to be a personal blog, but I just feel the need to blog about this particular topic.

I work at Shaws, and all in all, I enjoy my job, and my co-workers. But there are some people that are just so mean, I can't even handle it. A lot of the "Employees" complain about two particular managers in particular. the like to give these two rude names, and say A LOT of rude things about them. Like, I don't LOVE some of the people I work with, but I wouldn't say HALF of the things that some people say. I mean, its just plain mean. "Oh, I hate ________. She's such a ______."

Like honestly guys. If you don't like your boss THAT much....then fucking quit. I personally like most of the people I work with. Everyone for the most part is pretty nice, and I've met some really cool people from working at Shaws. But still, there's 1 or 2 people I don't get along with, and I just try to stay away from them. I can't grasp why people would say such mean things about each other.

There's only one person I've actually SAID that i didn't like, and that was only because they were getting on my nerves that day. I mean, that's one thing. Generally, I'm pretty tolerant of this person, but I just let a, "God, she's such a pain, I hate her sometimes" slip. I INSTANTLY felt bad about it. I mean, that person like, goes out of her way to be nice, and I said something like that. I felt bad, and I don't understand why others don't feel bad when they say such mean things.

I mean like, geez guys, chill out.
Love is all you need.

5 Faults of Society

Normally, under better circumstances, I'm a pretty patient, friendly person. However, its things like THIS that just make those ideal circumstances seem impossible.


Numbuh 5!

Ppl wh tpe wtht vwls.

Okay guys, what the fuck. The basis of forming a word is the presence of a vowel sound. You automatically assume that I will know what the hell you're talking about....GUESS WHAT!?

I don't.

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Nummmmmmbbbbbeeeerrrrr 4!

Crocs. May i just ask why the ugliest shoe ever created by human kind is so popular? I really don't care that Crocs are "Aerodynamically superior" or "breathable".....they're still fucking ugly. I mean, what does it matter if its aerodynamic? If I wear them..will I be able to fly? I THINK NOT.

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Number Thhraaaay!?

People who try to explain things...and prove they have NO idea what they're talking about. I mean, guys. Come on. *EXAMPLES!?:

"I think Arnold Schwartzenegger should be President, its about time we had a German in office"

"Awh, Man. You like Led Zeppelin? I love him too!"

"I'm a total Tina Turner Fan...I mean "And I will Always love you" is like, my FAVOIRTE song ever."

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Numero Dos!

Regis Philban. Enough said.

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and finally.

The realization that there will be A LOT more of these coming soon.

I guess this is my first post, guys.

Okay.
So...
First post.
First of all, i want to thank Sarah Nesbitt for being brilliant and making a blog, and inspiring me to do the same.

If you want to view her/Jenny's blog:

http://maryhadalittleramble.blogspot.com

I post random topics about random things.
Who knows, maybe I'll be like..the next AKB.
He's pretty fierce.

I'll start posting about real stuff really soon.
I promise.

TTFN Dahlings,
Chris.